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#0002 - On the personal site as a way to organize our subjeticivity

    

Index 1. What is this post 2. Collecting things and gathering pieces of information 3. My online experience on social media 1. What is this post It has been a long time (5 months?) since I made my first post and this website has been more or less abandoned ever since. I thought maybe it was time for me to write about why I created this website, not only to a potential audience but mostly to remember myself why I created this website in the first place, and hopefully this manifesto-y styled writing will inspire me to keep writing and posting and mantaining this website. So let's go. 2. Collecting things and gathering pieces of information I have always been someone who collected things. Not things as in objects, more like I would make a lot of lists of things I would like to read or know more about. Name of songs, of books, even today I have a briefcase full of pieces of paper filled with lists. But now I rarely remember those pieces of paper even exist, and speaking of which I should organize my closet. But I disgress. The reason I rarely remember those pieces of paper exist is because a large part of my habit has now moved to my computer. I have folders and folders of unread pdf files. My download folder has to be reorganized once two weeks and often there are files there I didn't even remember downloading. Saying my bookmarks are currently out of my control is an understatement. My cell phone tabs grow exponentially. The main problem is, because the internet has so much information, sometimes it seems like I will pass the rest of my days collecting and classifying it, postponing forever the act of enjoying it. I know gathering pieces of information is a natural tendency to a certain degree. Some people collect quotes (actually two or three of my bookmarked pages are quotes collected by people on their personal sites, but again I disgress), and I have recently rediscovered the concept of commonplace book, which appeals a lot to me. But for me, this tendency wans't being fullfiled in an adequate way online. Gathering information isn't enough. I believe information must be organized and incorporated in our way of living in a way that we obtain meaning out of it. 3. My online experience on social media And I was dissatisfied with my experience online for a lot of reasons. My digital personas were restricted to my Facebook's and my email's versions of the real me, and even my email was and still is mostly used for college-related stuff. I did a lot of web surfing and all, but I didn't have a place to talk about the things I found, and even if I tried to do that on my FB, it doesn't take a genius to see that FB interface is terrible for organizing and archiving stuff. Despite having bookmarks, it just wasn't made for that. Profiles aren't mean to be visited, the platform gives you almost no way of costumization regarding how the things you post will be displayed, posts can't be easily found, and infinite scroll is something I despise. Also, ads and memes. Don't get me wrong, I used to enjoy memes, but continuous exposition to them made them lost their appeal to me. I still use FB, as I'm sure other people do, as an obligation, in part because it is relatively easy to find services that I may need or events I would like to go there, in part because it is my only contact left with some people I am not in direct contact anymore. In short, FB is not very good at giving people tools so they can arrange their experiences in a way that they can get meaning out of them, in my opinion. I felt I needed a way to centralize and organize the subjective aspect of my experience online, as I used to do with lists and as some people do with diaries or commonplace books, or collection of quotes, or creating playlists or mixtapes, or whatever, in a way that I could create something part archive, part mean of self expression, that could serve as a consistent representation of the things I have selected in my online searches, otherwise they would only be lost in the continuous present of an infinite feed. Also, having to write about stuff in an website could force me to visit my bookmarks and read them in order to have something to say (I will always cite my sources). When in face with a endless flow of information, I felt I had to build a dam, but none of the plataforms I was using at the time offered me this possibility. Hopefully, this website will be the dam.

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